NEW ART!! but not here
hi i remade my art twitter recently so if for some reason you like my art go to tinybirdmagic @ twitter
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i haven't been on this hellish website for months WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED WITH IT
as you probably noticed i haven't been uploading a lot here
mainly because i didn't have time to do art and my depression got worse! wow! (tl;dr version below the wall of text)
due to the virus, i am no longer in my flat in wroclaw and i returned back home so my mom doesn't worry too much about me. i honestly don't know if it's for the better since i have to share my tiny room with not one, but two cockatiels and one of them is a youngster so he's full of teenage stupidity. kas being 5 years old soon has calmed down and is a very kind and gentle hen, she mostly hangs out with me in bed and naps or gently asks for pats. hotaru is only 9 months old(9 months already? what the hell) and he's just starting his hormonal phase. this time i'm pretty sure he's a boy, kastiel didn't want to destroy my ears trying to copy the honking of alex the honking cockatiel.
anyway, also thanks to the virus my learning abilities have degraded. i probably have mentioned that i'm studying zootechnics/animal science(i have no idea which terminology applies here fr) and it's the perfect degree course for me - i'm learning about animals, what i wanted to do since i was a wee baby and it's also practical most of the time. i get to see for myself how everything works in person, i can properly analyze it. and i also will be working with animals. literally dream major!! but since our uni is on shutdown, everything moved online and it's theoretical. i already have troubles with paying attention and remembering information, my memory became even more spotty, i tend to forget stuff even after a minute and i feel constantly tired, even after 10 hours of sleep. i have a speculation that i might have attention-deficit disorder that amplified in my adulthood(read up on it, can happen. had some symptoms showing up at age 10/11) but i need to talk about it with my psychiatrist.
this also affected my creativity, just because i feel constantly tired i haven't done much good art. i might upload something after i finish this journal.
another thing affecting my art is the state of my devices. i recently had to purchase a new tablet as my intuos 2015 draw started giving in after 4 years of intense work. i got an huion inspiroy h950p and i've been really happy with it! it's surprisingly good for a budget tablet. as for my laptop.... well, it's not doing well. i have enough money for an external drive because my hard drive is running out of memory and i have a tingling sensation that it's getting worn out and my ram memory isn't enough for my workflow.
i need to open up commissions properly so i get enough money for an ssd and an 8gb ram stick. i can't really afford a new laptop as much as i want to. so i will defo post commission info here!
so anyway, that's all. yeah. see ya in like... 8 months lol
tl;dr: virus bad, depression bad, can't focus on studying, too tired to do art, possibly has ADD, laptop's dying, commission info soon + art uploads after this journal
you can find me mostly on my twitter: @ florek_kun
ara ara? a journal?
so, it's been seven years since im on here. thats a very long time.
hard to believe that when i made this account i was just a mere 12 year old complaining about primary school and now i'm a 19 year old fart who graduated high school and awaits the entrance list for uni
well yeah! adulthood! i'm finally moving out from nowhere to hopefully wroclaw, where HOPEFULLY i will attend the university of environmental and life sciences! i picked animal science, it sounds so exciting that i hope i make it in.
other than that, my life has been going really slow these days. it's been 3-4 months since i last went to school, to study. it feels weird to not hear the alarm for 5:20 am and groaning loudly whenever i tried to get up from my bed. sometimes my mind still yells at me "HEY HEY STOP PLAYING TETRIS YOU'VE GOT SCHOOL TOMORROW!! YOU NEED TO STUDY" meanwhile i just,,,, dont have anything to study for. yeah, high school was harsh. but at least i met some cool people and i've became friends with my classmates from middle school(who happened to be my classmates in high school) and discovered theyre cool people!
but anyway, kastiel's also doing really fine. she's turning 4 today in fact! 19th august will mark 4 years since i have her. even though she sometimes frustrates me, i love this dumb bird. she helped me get through tough times.
y'all here remember her as a wee fledgling but now she's a beautiful gal! you can see her on my instagram or on my twitter
well, there's nothing else i could say. my life's pretty boring. hopefully uni will bring some more life into...my life. what can i say, i've been stagnating these 3 years ok. i have barely any friends.
cheers lads, gotta go listen to utaites before i sleep.
yes im not dead
so perhaps more art coming soon
if i buy replacement tips for my stylus
because the current one got destroyed
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*rises from grave*
ive recently came back to my old ocs(like mystery... and blue... and stuff) so original content coming soon-ish™ i think
i have no strength to even boot up my laptop buuuuuuUUT i am getting an ipad mini 4 for christmas and bday as my tiny pc for uni, tho i plan on getting a pen for it so yeah, art finally coming back!!! because im going to draw on a single thing that doesnt require too much space
so yeah im gonna go die now byeeeee